So, as it turns out, I needn’t have worried. The owner of the lingerie store emailed me last night and I went in there to see her today. I was quite nervous as I hadn’t been feeling well and wasn’t feeling myself. I had also planned to dress to the nines – to show my presentability, of course – but my light bout of the flu had me all shivery and cold so my original plan went out the window. In the end, I rugged up (despite it actually being a glorious day outside), which made me feel much less glorious than I had planned .
Anyway, it went well. She thinks my admin background will complement her complete lack of organisation and I think being able to have something more than ‘just’ working in the store with customers will give me more longevity in the role, which brings me to tonight’s musing.
One of her concerns was my ‘reliability’. As she saw it, I didn’t ‘need’ this job as much as say someone for whom this would be their only source of income. I have another job and maybe she thinks we’re rich (we’re not although we have spent a shit tonne of money in the store so she could be forgiven for thinking that) and that I won’t be committed. And she knows I’m thinking of quitting another job for this one (one I’ve only had for 3 months – but she doesn’t know that).
She didn’t say it to be offensive or hurt my feelings and, if I’m brutally honest, she has a point. I am not known for my commitment… to anything really. Besides pets and Jared anyway. Everything else I eventually get bored with. But don’t we all? Not many people are cut out to do the same thing year after year with no change or progression.
In my defence, I have been in my current job (more or less) for over three years. The role before that was 2 years. Then 5 years. Then 2 years. Some short stints but also some longer ones. I like to think that as long as I am kept productive and busy and feel like I’m learning and growing that I won’t want to leave. All the jobs I’ve left have been because I’ve been bored or I’ve asked for more responsiblity or more variety and it hasn’t been possible. I definitely would have stayed at the 5 year job if there was somewhere to go, there just wasn’t.
Long story short. I’m going in for a trial next week Thursday. I’m excited but also want to approach this decision with a clear head so I can be certain this will be a good fit for me. I love what she does and I love her brand. I was excited by her vision of where she could take the business if she had someone to help her get more organised, which I think I could do. She reminds me of someone I’ve worked for before actually who was also really good at their job, just extremely, eternally disorganised. It can actually be quite gratifying to see someone achieve their goals and know you’ve been instrumental in helping them get there.
Getting carried away with myself again, as per fucking usual. Let’s just see how these trials go and take it from there, shall we?