Masturbation is the sweetest lullaby

I fear I may have a problem. I’ve known for a long time now that masturbation helps you fall asleep but it wasn’t until the last few weeks or maybe months that I’ve really started applying it with any kind of dedication. I’d say I do it five or six nights out of seven and those missing nights are probably just because I fell asleep mid-play.

It’s not that I think masturbation is wrong. Far from it. My issue is that, when I play with myself too frequently (I can’t believe I’m admitting there even is a ‘too frequent’ level), I can’t come during sex if it happens within say a 12hr window afterwards. I use up all my spank bank material on my own solo pleasure mission and have nothing left when it comes time to play with others. And I need my spank bank material. I need to fantasise during sex. I don’t know why, I just do. There have been very few occasions when I’ve managed to come without fantasising about something.

So. Do I deny myself my nightly pleasures or save myself for those times when Jared is around to pleasure me? Which is usually only once a week at this stage because he’s super busy with work. You know what? Don’t even answer that question. I know I wouldn’t be capable of holding off that long regardless of the consequences. Hmmmm… seems like I’m in quite the pickle.

Fuck it, I’m just going to roll on. You can’t hold back on definite orgasms in the hopes of maybe orgasms (maybe in the sense that I don’t know when they’ll happen, not that Jared can’t make them happen). Live for the moment, I say.  Carpe the fucking orgasm!


17 thoughts on “Masturbation is the sweetest lullaby

  1. I go through the same thing! Me and my gf usually have set days in the week when we can see each other so I try to hold off a day or two before I know I will see her so I have something built up for her. Sometimes I can’t hold off though so I then focus all my energy into feeling sexy because the sexier I feel, the more in the mood I get and I can get to a place where I’ll orgasm. But either way I get there, I’m always happy I arrived! Lo

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    1. Hahah it’s true, it’s so much in the mind. Sometimes, I tell myself, ‘Nope, not going to happen’ and then I’ll surprise myself. Makes me wonder if I end up mentally short changing myself like this all the time!


  2. I used to masturbate 4-5 times a week but now that I’m older I’ve cut it back to every 3 or 4 days. My body is different and I find I enjoy it more when I have more cum built up. When I have a steady sexual partner I sometimes fantasize. I don’t think it’s a bad thing, especially if you’re monogamous.

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  3. Orgasms should not be denied, unless it’s part of the scene πŸ˜‰ Grab that joy stick and ride into bliss!
    Men and women both fantasize and there is nothing wrong with that. What ever get’s he or she to the finish line πŸ™‚

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    1. Yes, he does. He reads this blog and I’ll often get him to tell me “stories” while I masturbate. He’s getting very good at it but I actually don’t know much about his fantasies. You’ve inspired me to ask him!

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